Tml is a book in day, and field camp follow, wth!! ..hell man..
Read my dear's blog n saw 1 really long post, i was touch. The feeling that i can't explain. I'm lying that i said i don't feel like crying, i really do feel like it.

(She posted this)It started out as a game. I was just looking for some guy to past time with, to message with. I never thought that we will last so long. Maybe half a year, tops.What should I say? Or what can I say? I’ve always said a lot of bad things about him. I’ve told him before that I wanted an older guy because I want an older brother. Some people do that (read it up somewhere) to satisfy the fact that they never had an older brother before. I’ve told him that he was… well, not bright. He always pronounced the word ‘steak’ as ‘stick’. I can’t tolerate mistakes like that. I mean, you’re supposed to know more than me. Of course, to know how to pronounce simple words as well. And not to mention his atrocious punctuation, grammar and his super limited vocabulary. I have to say, he really drives me nuts sometimes. Hah! And the way he buys presents for me really makes me laugh out loud. Then among all his hard-to-ignore flaws, I see the qualities that I don’t find in others.His ultimate patience had indeed spoiled me a little. Even though my temper had been better but it was only, somehow, towards other people only. I threw all sorts of unreasonable tantrums at him yet I had never ever seen the love he have for me waver. He knew that when I just with him, I was still healing from my previous relationship. He never really did mind, he stood by me quietly even when I cry for the most outrageous reasons. He comforted me even though the one hurting the most should be him. Although from a third party’s view, he’s probably a very stupid person. And I agree with that. If I was him, I’d probably slap that person and leave him/her. But he didn’t. He tries to be the one I want the most. Smart, humorous, romantic… he sends me long and sweet messages in the middle of the night (he knows I like it). I can see that he is trying.From other people’s eyes, he’s probably just an uncouth 19-year-old, a paedophile and probably someone who cannot succeed. A guy who can’t talk without sounding like he’s asking for a fight. But the way he talks to me is totally different. He is kind, sweet and funny. I just have no idea why he must be so fierce when he is talking to others. I swear I laughed when I typed paedophile. I was thinking of Michael Jackson. Hey, he’s(D) not a paedophile okay. And I believe that if he really really sets his mind to something, he will achieve it.I use to think that I can survive without him. But now, maybe not. I think I’m falling in deeper than I thought.