i think this time might be the end,i told no one,but i want to tell so i will feel more easy.but if i tell u that will just make u more stress,u are always stress by many things,i say abit only n u stress ald. i though this kind of things will never happen to me,but i was wrong.i was even so proud to say this wont happen to me!!but......it happen,eventually. stupid question ask to me in the morning n evening,i'm ald think something is amiss. really there is,haha,clever me,n stupid me.i prevent this,but not that.i'm really lousy,i know this kind of shit will happen,so i ald trying to prevent this,but it still happen.WHY? no one will understand..even u ,u will just think that i a crazy guy who stress u too much n don think about your feeling,but thats all for your own good.i've once tell u to tell me who msged u,but u choose not to tell me cuz i will just make u lose 1 friend,thats wat u think,so i'm the bad guy.but when i try to be the good guy by not asking u that much.SHIT happen LIKE THIS!!i don stop,its carry on,when it carry on,u will fall for someone n i'm the victim. to you,i'm just not as good looking,fit,too tall or short,too old for you,nothing u will see in..i donno why u will still spend your time with me for so long, i'm really confused. den now u everyday olso so sian,i try to not think about it or ask u anything,but u just seems so sian,donno wat u thinking,olso don wan tell,donno donno,ask anything olso donno.I"M YOUR FUCKING BOYFRIEND!DONNO IF U TREAT ME AS YOUR BF ANOT!!haha..good life for me.!
POP parade have pass like a flash,during the process its slow,once u have gone through it,fells so good.Currently undergoing a new ST course,stay in for 6 weeks,bored..I wan 8 to 5 !! feeling very sian n lost this few days,many many things happen,and all the training have keep my mind busy,i have no time for others things. But yet things have to happen at this time.lost lost lost~~
Another week has past, 3 months past just like that, its going to be POP day in 5 days time, really can't bear to part with some of the friends here. Some were really nice to talk with, past time, and to disturb. Even though the sergeants were f*** up, but they are doing it for our own good, at the end, they are the really nice people. 3 months in BMTC have taught me alot, its now time to move on, the next time i blog will be after me POP.
today is thursday,but why i'm out,i olso donno,haah,but anyway,today is my birthday.experience birthday in camp,its was not bad though,quite fun..early in the morning today,suppose to have our daily 5BX exercise,but due to raining,we stayed in bunk.den sergeant shaun came up n walk pass,i remember i saw no 1 lying on the bed,but he say got.N he gave us 20 sec to fall in outside of our bunk,but section 2 n 3 take their own sweet time.Den serheant shaun pissed off n pump me down,when i recover,he ask me what day is today,den i replied book out day lo!!den he say,no!!is your birthday!!,den i heard birthday song n guys from section 2 n 3 brought out a samll pie for me,like a cake,i make a wish.morning gone,speed training cancel,AC followed,suddenly change to sergeant PT,when we are doing bridge,sergeant suresh ask the platoon to sing birthday song for me again,haha,the second time,so touch.while we were marching to TFT,they sang for me the last time.n today pass fast.this 2 days is a big n good day for me,birthday n yearly anniversary of me n weishan,this year is the 2nd year we are together,its been a long time,but i will just cherish her more,love her so much,hope there will be many n many yearly anni!!
Have to book in tomorrow morning, feel so tired and bored, today happen alot of things, and i don't wish to say, feel so tired about it, i just hope that i can see changes, and not the same old thing which i have to see and kept it to myself, pop days is drawing near, feeling excited about, but sad too, i wish that if we all could stay like this for the next 2 years, it will be very good, but its just have to change. To a new place, new people, new things to do and to learn, at least for the next two years, BMT have taught me alot, grow in leadership and independent. Thats it for now, tune in next week for more.
I miss to post week, its okay, just go to my dear's blog, there shows what happen last week. Today is national day, just like any other day for me, just that i'm having my weekend off from camp. Went out yesterday with bi, to orchard, even though she can't get the skirt she wants, but we still have fun, love you!! Have a long weekend this week, feel like catching movies, but feel bored and tired too, Final Destination 4 is coming out soon, on my birthday!have to watch it when i book out.